I feel so extraordinary Something's got a hold on me I get this feeling I'm in motion A sudden sense of liberty
I don't care 'cos I'm not there And I don't care if I'm here tomorrow Again and again I've taken too much Of the thing that costs you too much
I used to think that the day would never come I'd see the light in the shade of the morning sun My morning sun is the drug that brings me near To the childhood I lost replaced by fear I used to think that the day would never come That my life would depend on the morning sun
When I was a very small boy Very small boys talked to me Now that we've grown up together They're afraid of what they see
That's the price that we all pay Value destiny comes to nothing I can't tell you where we're going I guess there's just no way of knowing
I used to think that the day would never come I'd see the light in the shade of the morning sun My morning sun is the drug that brings me near To the childhood I lost replaced by fear I used to think that the day would never come That my life would depend on the morning sun
I feel so extraordinary Something's got a hold on me I get this feeling I'm in motion A sudden sense of liberty
The chances are we've gone too far You took my time and you took my money Now I feel you've left me standing In a world that's so demanding
I used to think that the day would never come I'd see the light in the shade of the morning sun My morning sun is the drug that brings me near To the childhood I lost replaced by fear I used to think that the day would never come That my life would depend on the morning sun
Touched by the Hand of God
I was standing by the ocean when I saw your face I couldn't look at you I guess you knew it but I never realised that we were through And now I'm down here all alone with every feeling that I own you can't take that away And with every breath we take and the illusions we create will come to you someday
And I was touched by the hand of God I never knew it, but of course I was
I never hoped to do the things in this world I wanted to Because everything I own, it belongs to you I've never looked at you in a sexual way in my life before And I've never woken up like this so desparately before
And I was touched by the hand of God I never knew it, but of course I was
生命是充滿矛盾和悲與喜的,剛去世的「肥肥」她在銀幕上是很開心,但在背後婚姻受到的挫折,女兒的反叛。在人生的旅途上就好像「人格分裂」,人前一個樣,當自己一個時又是另一個樣。Joy Division的主音Ian Curtis自縊結束自己23歲的生命,可能是可惜,可能是他的一種解脫。老實說我不鼓勵人自殺,但我不難保我會否有那一天。至少這一刻我不會輕生,因為我還未得到我想要的未來。自問對Joy Division沒有大的認識,是Pixel Toy唱的Love will tear us apart才令我有興趣聽一聽原唱,一直期待這部電影,終於有機會讓我了解他們對音樂的貢獻。
音樂的誕生是需要藝術家的感知,Love will tear us apart講的是情路總是會帶給人傷害,不斷重覆著愛情給我們帶來傷害。曾經看過邱妙津的小說,她以死作為蒙馬特遺書的終結,為自己的生命譜寫。她就是一個永恆的藝術家,長埋在讀者的心中。Ian的歌到現在仍然會影響人,他的歌仍然會長存,因為我們是需要這些人在我們的生命中出現,然後反映自己的生命。導演用黑白片的方式去拍攝,一部獨立電影帶我回去昔日的時光。